ugh.

i absolutely hate this love crap! its just too much for me sometimes. like i know where i stand with him. but i just dont know where he stands with me. hes promised me that he would try his hardest. but right now the only one whose trying is me. i feel like an idiot. i feel like ive known him my whole life. but i really dont think i know him at all. it feels like hes non existant. i think im just making him out to be someone who hes not. and its driving me insane. communication is the main thing i need and want with anyone whose involved with my life. im just scared and freaked out. i dont wanna walk away from someone who could be the "one". but right now im just not too sure. ugh.
i dont want to have these feelings anymore!